Soul Searching But Running From Your Calling

Hey there! This is Iris from TeamSensophy. 🙂

Imagine this: Your soul starts calling out to you, telling you to leave your life behind and start living on purpose. Crazy, right? Well, that’s exactly what happened to this cool young lady called Naveh. She’s heard that calling for years, yet she tried to escape it time and time again.

Naveh also happens to be a very cool Sensophy reader and a couple of days ago she shared her story with Jacob. (With her permission) we want to share her story with you.

Keep on reading to learn:

• What a $350 haircut and an overpriced tee can teach you about what’s important in life
• How an escape to Hawaii can make your soul become very talkative
• How you can start again if you’ve been running away from your calling

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Hey Jacob,

Wow! What can I say except I am COMPLETELY and UTTERLY inspired!

It’s so weird.. You left the City for Hawai’i..So did I (Except, I was 19 and I left from San Fracisco). I had just broken free of the demoralizing foster-care system at 18, and I was ridiculously dead-set on overcompensating for my troubled past by becoming “Donna Trump”. I got a nice job, bought a car, got an apartment downtown and invested in a little piece of real-estate with my friends. But one day, things changed.

After yet another shopping spree, I stared at a plain white tee-shirt I had bought for $50 and I glanced over at yet another pair of brand new shiny heels. A chill went down my spine. I looked in the mirror at my $350 hairstyle and then into the unfamiliar eyes on the face of a girl I didn’t like. I broke into tears. I was not happy. I realized I needed more and I wanted more—material things had nothing to do with what I wanted in my soul.

For some reason, growing up with drug-abuse, violence and trying to scrap together money for food as a kid left me thinking “having money” would fill my inner void. Nope.

My soul was calling for something more…

I left San Francisco at 19. I got rid of my car, let go of my apartment and I let the housing bubble take over my little property… As soon as I stepped off the plane in the humidity of Honolulu, I KNEW my life would change… It did.

The first week on O’ahu, I booked a flight to Maui and biked around the island alone… I didn’t know a soul in the whole state. It was on a warm day on Ka’anapali Beach, with no one around that I prayed to know why I was in Hawai’i. I wanted to know WHY I was on this planet!

The answer came, but I ran from it in fear.

[ The thing is, I always knew I was different and that I had a dense purpose in life. I knew mediocrity would NEVER suffice for me… From the time I was 5, living in the projects with roaches running up and down our walls, I remember seeing the CNN newsflash of starving kids in the Rwandan genocide. I remember pointing to a bowl of oranges in the kitchen and asking my mom how I could get the oranges to those kids. She laughed at me and didn’t know that I was serious. Since then, I knew I had to do something to impact this world… I didn’t know what.]

Back to Hawai’i.. So yea, I was 19, I discovered my love for the water and began surfing, I met great people the week after I left Maui, and began attending a really positive church…But for some reason, inside, I still wasn’t ready to answer my soul’s calling.

Fast-forward to a year ago: Living in LA, I was 23 and feeling my normal “down” during June because it marked the 11^th anniversary of my father’s suicide. Through a series of events, I ran into Brian Johnson’s Philosopher’s Notes TV on Youtube. I couldn’t get enough!! I ate it up like candy! I kept listening to his 10-minute sets.. Then, I got on entheos.com and got Volume 1 and 2… By listening to this stuff, I JUST KNEW that I had to self-actualize. I just KNEW it. But I got scared of the “unknown”. Again, I still wasn’t ready to answer my soul’s calling and pretty much forgot about PN.

Late last year, I quit that job and got hired at one of the world’s largest companies, at the US headquarters in an LA suburb. I traveled with the company and hobschnobbed with people who were “important”. It was on that trip, I felt that familiar chill go down my spine.

It was the same chill I had when I was 18 staring at the $50 tee-shirt: I KNEW this is NOT what I’m supposed to be doing.

Today, I’m 24 years old (just like you were!) and I KNOW (as I have always known since I was a kid), that I have an immensely dense purpose. I can’t say exactly what it is, but in the past two weeks, I have decided to take the baby steps toward finding it. I have picked up PN again, started journaling the heck out of my journal, and started practicing my FUNDAMENTALS EVERY morning. I was searching around online and BOOM, I found your site!

Your story resonated so deeply with me because I am now beginning to slay the demons of my past, and conquer myself internally, just like you did.

It’s crazy because I started all this stuff and then BOOM I found your site like an hour ago. It confirms EVERYTHING I’m doing and implementing!.. AND I can’t believe you escaped to Hawai’i, JUST LIKE ME! It was a place of deep healing for me, and I know I’m ready to accept the call I heard when I first sat on that beach in Maui. It’s time to embark on my journey and become the “Warrior-ette” I am destined to be.

Even though it has only been two weeks for me, I am FULLY committed! I know I’m going to leave this job soon… I am wasting my full potential here. It’s time for “God within” to emerge from the depths of my soul. I’m going to keep up with your blog, too. Besides, entheos.com, it’s EXACTLY what I have been looking for…

I’m SO inspired by you!! Thanks for your post and God bless!

🙂 O <3

Smiles_Hugs_Love,
Naveh

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So what do you think about Naveh’s story? All I can say is: WOW!

This is exactly why we do what we do here at Sensophy: To inspire and empower YOU to find your purpose and live an extraordinary life.

Now it’s your turn…

Tell us about a moment when you committed to making a soul-style decision to change your life for the better! What led you to leave behind your old energy-draining lifestyle?

Share in the comments below!